~ a contemporary YA novel ~
3rd DRAFT: 37, 010 / 85,000 words (43.5%)
“The weight of the sky—of the whole world—was pushing down, and it was crushing me.”
Carter Cantwell seems to have it all: brains, athleticism, musical talent, and a winning personality to boot. But he wasn’t always that way.
In the wake of a family tragedy four years ago, the once-shy Carter has toiled and sacrificed to become someone worthy of his brother, someone his dad would be proud of, someone who can fill the gaping hole left in his mother’s heart. He has reinvented every part of himself—and if his hands still sometimes tremble, or panic claws its way up his throat…well, no one knows about it but him.
But then Carter meets Remy. Remy sees right through his façade to the person buried deep inside, the one Carter thought he left behind. This time there is nowhere to run, nowhere to hide, no way to escape from those knowing blue-grey eyes. Because Remy has unearthed the secrets Carter has been keeping from everyone, even himself.
And that’s when Carter’s carefully ordered life begins to fall apart.